I just realise i havent blogged here in a really long time, i might just start blogging here, if not tumblr it will be.
life is normal now, attachment is starting.
coming to this blog and my private blog just sucks cuz everything just comes back to me.
omg, thats it. goodbye!

hello blog!
its been a long time since i blog, my life is kinda good and bad now.
Ori was very closed to me till she came back from hk and something happened and she is very busy.
Cof has been amazing as always and today was outreach.
But i went home wanting to cry but i didnt, (:
Went to the beach then met waynn for awhile.
Sometimes lifes get really hard and all i want to do is just give everything up.
But i have to learn to live stronger each day.
im very tired now and i have training tmr.
life sucks for now, i know it will be better soon.

I need to get back to track in my life.
Get used to people judging you and me loving God.
Many people comes and go in my life.
But i am certainly thankful for su an and sharifah.
this two awesome people that never fails to be there.

People have to know that joyce expects from me too.
Its not only me okay.

nvm, im just not okay now.

This is my past, truthfully speaking, i miss them all, including su an.
Remember xueting constant scolding wanting me to do well, remember i have this 5 girls who was there for me through thick and thin.
Now what im left with?
My family, COF, Fatin, SuAn and Sharifah.
ITE has been such a mess, i somehow feel like dropping out and take private diploma and start working for my own life, get a degree and go on with my life, i need a new life.
its 1am now, i should be sleeping because i have school tmr at 10am.
Sometimes i just need assurance, but if i did that, im selfish, really.

Granny is doing physiotheraphy and after the maid is trained, she will be out already.
Im having a major headache almost everyday, its been super long since ive seen ori already.
Not only her, waynn too.

Ive just been spending time with my family, if not alone, if not with her.
Okay i think im gonna cover a song, upload it before i sleep.

My laptop blogger is not working so im just gonna blog with my phone.

So what i want to say today is, im happy.
Its my big brothers birthday and his celebration was amazing.
Kinda got closer to my family more, which is good. Learning to accept one another. Hmm.

Im actually very tired and im planning to find peace within myself. Sometimes i just feel that i have things more impt in my life to do.

Su an, ipah never fails to be there if i need them, i like.
I miss fatin, sharan so so much, sigh.
I really need to find peace within me soso badly.
I need to find back th reason why i first accept christ.

Ms rineal wedding reception was find on the saturday then went for cell and knew each other more. After dinner, reached home bathed and out for new balance run.
What a tired day man.
the event was quite good but got afew comments. Sigh.
Okay, got to sleep soon already. Goodnight.